It doesn't make sense, but you're not stopping to understand.

You're free and that's all you want to know, and will ever know in a life time.

A reason wasn't your reason. You never had one. To be so free, wild and happy.

It doesn't make sense, and I'm trying to stop and make it work.

I'm trapped. That's all I'll ever be, and all I'll ever be in this life time.

A reason is needed, but I can't find it. I had one, but I lost it.

I never deserved, the free, wild and happy being you were.

Maybe. Maybe, that's what didn't make sense with us.

We were different, and a non reflecting mirror image.

Well, over the past few weeks I've been meaning to create a dance chorography. It's hard, having to find the right moves for the right notes along with the right song. Though I think I found the right song which is {Bobby Cipolla - No more} Hopefully it is it. Because I've been through two songs, Say Ahh and City is mine and the dancing didn't quite fit. Well, it did. Only the start though and after that I didn't manage to get anywhere.

Moving on, today I have no plans so just simply going to sit behind the screen again. Like I do everyday, no change. But tomorrow, I'll be heading to the beach hopefully not going to 'tan' or 'burn' to death. 'Cause getting sunburnt is hella painful after a day. And I know because I got it last week. Now its gone, much better.

'If he needed me, more than anything he had encountered, would he not shelter anything that possibly could have brought him down? Rather than exercising his mouth with me? Shoving explanations my way? But it seems to be that being about each other was remotely complex than any other obstacle, for him. That is'

Yesterday I met up with a friend and headed off to watch Avatar. Which was when I came to realisation that I've never hated her so much. I mean, my friend that is. I didn't know why I wanted to watch it with her anyway. Probably because I was in the rush to watch Avatar, cause I heard it was really good. And... The other factor was I wanted to 'fix' my anger that I shared for her. That didn't work out as you can see. But perhaps I knocked her out of the zone too? I don't know, but that was yesterday and today I haven't spoken to her at all.

Our world is yours and mine. The magic of everything non-magical. The science of magic. The beliefs, lies and wonders. Under earth, outside space. Time, endless. Forever, magical. In our minds. Between the time where we are awake and unconscious. Next to me. Under the covers, stars and everything. The night, blue, and dark sky. Just magic.

Well holidays have officially started for me. Should I be happy or what? Cause I really don't understand the fuss besides not having to wake up so early each morning, staying up late finishing assigned task from teachers @ school, y'know? But whatever. I guess I can say there will be more time to 'chill' with a few old friends and rekindle relationships, right? Because I remember around this time last year, Iminlikewithyou or now called omgpop was the 'thing' and I made fewer friendships. And now you see, we're like bestfriends. I even had a crush on one of them. But due to school playing a major role in my life, I had to push aside things and that kind of, drafted our conversations, which I dislike dearly. But never mind now, because I have 6 weeks or until feb the first to mend things with the oldies! And as much as I want to restore old things, I'm in for a change. Like hair wise, facial piercing, weight and style?

I feel the urge to stand out from my comfort zone. Yet, this does not mean I want to stand out from everyone and turn heads when entering the school gates or anywhere in particular. Like I would ever be able to do that anyway, right? But the point is, if I'm going to keep blending in, do it differently. Walk a different way, or etc.

& only 12 days left 'til 2008 flies by our eyes forever.
I mean, 2009. Wow. Sometimes, I think I'm still stuck in 2008. Because these years have been flying by so quick I don't feel it. It doesn't feel that long. Good or bad?
Whether I would have preferred last year over this year is still unknown but most likely to be a no. I can't chuck away any friendships right now. Because honestly, I love most of my friends. I mean, all probably. Though some are really shaky right now, but I'm assuming we'll be over it sometime (everything has it's period of fame) God, I've grown up so much.
WHAT HAVE I BECOME.